That Fortuitous Ooops

I wanted nothing more than to hide out of sight this morning when I turned on my computer.  I discovered that the link-in I'd ALREADY POSTED did not, in fact, lead to the "rest of my story" on the site I was linking TO.  The rest of my story was not on the other end at all.  However, I know you who checked it out found an exceptional post by a woman with a heart-tugging story to share.  What a relief to know that God uses even such things as date mix-ups to accomplish His purposes!

How did my link get posted before the fact?  Well.... knowing that this day could get hectic fast, I'd gone ahead (grabbing a middle of the night posting opportunity when I saw one) and put a link here to a post THERE that I'd thought would be on today.

Oooops. I went to Suscipio today and didn't find my post.

You know what I found instead?

I found a very real sharing about fear, anger, and autism.  Jen writes poignantly about  "Fear of losing my kids. Fear of not being in control. Fear of autism because I don’t always know what to do because he cannot always communicate what he needs, wants, or how he feels....."

I found Jen's story exceptionally compelling.  And I have to thank our good God.  Today He knew (I really think) that someone(s), somewhere(s), needed to find this excellent and very real post.

If you have ever struggled with anger, or fear, or if you know someone dealing with autism, I recommend that you click this line and head on over to Suscipio. 

You might be grateful for my fortuitous ooops.  

Painting: Cinderella, Prinsep, in US public domain)

His Vision

"Sometimes we wonder why the Lord makes us wait so long for an answer to our prayers..... 

"His vision of our situation includes factors that are hidden from us.  We see only our present need, but His eyes range ahead over
the whole of our lives, and not of ours only, but of all those other lives which are affected by ours.  He sees the deep needs of each one
of us and of the whole of mankind. ..

"God's timing is always
perfect."  

            (Pope St. Leo the Great) 




 



(Painting: Jesus Goes Up Alone Onto A Mountain to Pray by James Tissot, in US public domain)

See? This is What I'm Doing...

 

The paintings and photos I use here are chosen in two ways.  Usually, I write something or find a quote, and then look for a picture to help illustrate the point.  

Occasionally, however, I find the picture first.  Which is what happened today.  I am amazed at how this newly discovered painting has grabbed my imagination and even led me into prayer (God can truly use anything).  Frederic Leighton surely had no idea, when he painted "The Painter's Honeymoon" in 1864, that a woman 150 years later would find his work leading her into meditation on ways of God...

The more I looked at this work of art, the more pulled in I actually was.  I immediately saw the man as representing Christ. The scene could be taking place in Eternity, perhaps when the woman ("I," in this case) had just arrived.  

"See?  This is what I have been doing," He might be saying. "All that time when you were struggling, suffering, worrying. Just look at the beauty I have drawn from that.  Notice how I've blended light into the shadows. Your life would not have been a work of art without the dark spots, which, as you can see here, have given form and texture to the whole.  Notice how your life blends into all that I'm still doing.  See how I continue to work, to contour, merging the decisions you made and the paths you took into what's going on with your descendants and their friends and, indeed, the whole world."

"The whole world?" I ask.  He looks at me then, and does not say a word.  In His eyes is the answer.  Of course.  Each life affects the others, in ways people could never imagine. 

HE is the One Who can see the WHOLE whole picture.  HE is Creator, "Painter," Author.  He is King, Savior, Teacher, Healer, Messiah, Bridegroom.  He is the Alpha and Omega.  He alone is Lord of all. 

"In the beginning was the Word; the Word was in God's presence, and the Word was God... through Him all things came into being, and apart from Him nothing came to be."  (John 1:1-2)

"We know that God makes all things work together for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His decree."  (Romans 8:28)

"Now we see indistinctly, as in a mirror; then, we shall see face to Face.  My knowledge is imperfect now; then I shall know even as I am known."  (1 Corinthians 13:12)

Portrait of a... Saint?

I've posted several quotes here about the call we have to sainthood.  Thinking of this recently, I came across something I'd written in 1990.  I could scribble these words as easily today......

Am I called to be a saint?  Of course I am.  I am called to be with God forever in heaven - that is sainthood. Am I called to be a saint on earth?  Of course I am.  I am called to give my life to Him in heroic abandon as He enables me, and I am called to love my neighbor in perfect charity, and I am called to be holy and good and dead to self on earth.  But how easy it is to say 'I want to be a saint' when I sit in perfect comfort.

What a different story when the tiniest little thing crosses the rosy self-made path I've envisioned and the flames of sacrifice nip at my will.

What a saint I then become - grumbling on the guillotine and cursing the very instruments of sainthood.
                                                           (from The Cloistered Heart, 2008 edition, p. 13)

IF.......

"If all would only make use of 

 the ordinary duties and trials of their state 

in the way God intended,

they would all become saints."

                                   

                                                                    Sister Miriam Teresa Demjanovich

(painting Alfred Reuter Waschetrockenplatz, US public domain)

Blogger's Block

I finally had some time for blogging this morning.  Time to sit down, think a hopefully coherent thought, and put together something "original."  After a busy few days, I was looking forward to writing a few words that would be, well... you know.  New.  Fresh.  Maybe even (dare I hope it?) a teensy bit inspiring.  So I sat at my blogging desk and wrote....

nothing.  Absolutely nothing. 

I poked around the Internet for a bit, checked my e-mail, read some really good blog posts, and came back to my blank screen to write...

nothing. 

I got up and did a bit of cleaning.  Had something to eat.

Came back to my chair and prayed.  After all, I have been trusting that GOD will get something onto this blog whenever HE wants there to be............

Oh.

I want to do what He wants me to do, when He wants it done - have I said that?  Yes.  Do I mean  that?  Well, yes.  Yes, I do mean it. 

Oh.

And so I write this not to fill up a post, but to pass along the "lesson" I think Our Lord has been teaching me today.  I (ideally) write for Him, or not at all.  I (ideally) share what HE wants, when HE wants, or I may as well keep silent. 

Feeling Hungry?

Divine Scripture is the feast of wisdom,
and the individual books are the various dishes.

                                                                                                                      St. Ambrose

A Serenity of Temper

Spiritual joy

 is a serenity of temper in the changes of life,

 such as a mountain has when a storm breaks over it.

To a man who has never rooted

 the soul in the Divine,

 every trouble exaggerates itself.

                                                                                           - Archbishop Fulton Sheen

When You Pray....

"When you pray, go to your room, close your door, and pray to your Father in private.  Then your Father, Who sees what no man sees, will repay you."  (Matthew 6:6)

Be Led Gently

"Take no notice of that feeling you get of wanting to leave off in the middle of your prayer, but praise the Lord for the desire you have to pray.  That, you may be sure, comes from your will which loves to be with God.  It is just melancholy that oppresses you and gives you the feeling of constraint.  

Try occasionally, when you feel yourself oppressed in that way, to go to some place where you can see the sky, and walk up and down a little... 

It is essential that the soul be led gently."

                                                                                   - from a letter of St. Teresa of Avila

(August Hagborg painting in US public domain)

Turn Everything to Profit

"Take advantage of little sufferings even more than of great ones.  God considers not so much what we suffer as how we suffer....

Do what a shopkeeper does in regard to his business; turn everything to profit.  Even though it be only an insect sting or a pin prick, a little eccentricity of your neighbor or some unintentional slight, the loss of some money, some little anxiety, a little bodily weariness, or a slight pain in your limbs.  Turn everything to profit, as the grocer does in his shop, and you will soon become rich before God...

At the least annoyance say, 'thank you, Lord; Your will be done."
                            - St. Louis de Montfort





(Guido Marulli painting, placed by artist in public domain)

These Opportunities

"These little daily acts of charity, this headache, toothache or cold, this bad humor in a husband or wife, this broken glass, this contempt or that scorn, this loss of a pair of gloves, ring or handkerchief, the little inconveniences incurred by going to bed early and getting up early to pray or receive Holy Communion, that little feeling of shame one has in performing certain acts of devotion in public - in short, all such little trials when accepted and embraced with love are highly pleasing to God's mercy.  For a single cup of water God has promised to his faithful a sea of perfect bliss...

Great opportunities to serve God rarely present themselves, but little ones are frequent."
                                                                                                                             - St. Francis de Sales

(William Paxton painting 1909, in US Public Domain)

For Now, Indistinctly

Sometimes I can't make sense at all of the world around me.  At times, it seems I'm just wandering about aimlessly.  Of course I know that's not true; my faith tells me it's not true.  But it can feel that way.  When I have a touch of illness, when tragedy strikes, when disaster hits on a large or small scale, things can seem frightfully bleak.  Like monsters lurking, waiting to pounce, circumstances can grow larger and darker the more I look at them.

Some years ago, when I was facing a time of difficulty, it occurred to me that I only see a tiny part of the overall picture.  God is the Artist, standing ready to make a Masterpiece of my life. I keep pulling the brush from His hand, but He always takes it back the instant I repent and offer it to Him.  I have witnessed His great Mercy sweep across my stubborn smudges and work even those into His grand design.

Still, from where I sit, sometimes things don't make a great deal of sense.  There seems to be no real pattern (I think at times).  There can be a lot of dark.  But I see only a small part of the picture, I remind myself.  I'm like a jigsaw-puzzler responsible for only a tiny section - with no boxtop illustration to help me see how my little bit fits into the bigger plan!

My little portion, jumbled and dark though it may be, DOES fit into a much larger picture.  This I trust as fact.  Because God assures me of it, this I know. 

One day I will see the finished work.

"Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, nor has it so much as dawned on man, what God has prepared for those who love Him."  (1 Corinthians 2:9)

"We walk by faith, not by sight."  (2 Corinthians 5:7)

"God makes all things work together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His decree."  (Romans 8:28)

"Now we see indistinctly, as in a mirror.  Then we shall see face to face."  (1 Corinthians 13:12)

Adoration of the Eucharist, J.J. Espinosa, 1650

Make Way for Grace

"When He finds a soul penetrated with a lively faith, 

He pours into it His graces and favors plentifully.

There they flow like a torrent,

which, after being forcibly stopped

against its ordinary course,

 when it has found a passage,

spreads itself with impetuosity and abundance.

  Yes, we often stop this torrent

by the little value we set upon it.

 But let us stop it no more.

  Let us enter into ourselves 

and break down the bank which hinders it.

Let us make way for grace.

  Let us redeem the lost time" 

                                                                                                                              - Brother Lawrence

A Chance to Rhyme

I once heard Dr. Scott Hahn say, regarding echoes of Truth throughout the Old and New Testaments, that “history does not repeat itself, but it does rhyme.” 

One instance of “rhyming” I’m personally fond of has to do with charcoal fires.  Two particular scenes in the life of St. Peter remind me that even in our individual histories, we are given chance after chance to rhyme.

Please click here to join me over at Suscipio,  There we will look at "rhyming fires," and at the opportunity we are each given to rhyme our own lives with the plans of God...

Keeping Things in Perspective

The following is something I have a hard time describing, but I find it important enough that I'm going to give it a try.

I think we're made to look for the time when things are stable and settled, but we set our sights too short.  Heaven is where our gaze (even now) is to be directed.

I compare it to the "vanishing point" I did projects on in Art school.  In a study of perspective, the vanishing point is that place on the horizon where what one sees, in effect, vanishes.  It's a central point, sometimes illustrated by a single little dot.  It is that spot to which all things are directed.   Everything in the picture is geared toward that point.  Streets, roofs, windows, roads can then be lined up as the eye sees them: wider when they're closer to the viewer, and narrower toward the horizon.  the picture is only correct, nicely proportioned, and logical if the artist takes into account the vanishing point.  In a basic perspective lesson, the student is taught to project the vanishing point and then to practice by using rulers until all things in the picture line up correctly with that one central spot.

We look to things of earth, goals in this life, as our vanishing points.  But the only true and unchanging vanishing point is in eternity.  We are to fix our eyes on Jesus, and all things then take their proper perspective.  All too often we "draw in" parts of our lives with the wrong central spot ("I must make my life today line up with my goal of making money.... becoming successful... being well liked... appearing intelligent...."), and while this may seem to work for a time, it actually throws our lives off balance. 

It is only when we fix our eyes on Jesus that everything else falls into proper perspective.

He is the one and only Central Spot. 

"Here we have no lasting city; we are seeking one which is to come."  (Hebrews 13:14)

A Chance For Virtue

"The worst thing that can befall persons who have good will is to want to be what they cannot be and not want to be what they necessarily must be.  They conceive desires to do great things, which perhaps will never be expected of them; in the meantime, they neglect the little things which God puts into their hands.  There are thousands of acts of virtue, as for example:

to bear little troubles and the imperfections of our neighbors;
to suffer a biting word or some little injustice;
to repress a harsh word;
to mortify a little attachment or curiosity;
to refrain from giving a bit of news;
to excuse an indiscretion;
to be condescending toward others in little things -
these are for everyone, so why not practice them?"
                                                                                   (St. Francis de Sales) 
(Mary Cassattt painting public domain)

Be Not Unworthy

"Americans, God has given you a great country....

   Be not unworthy of Heaven's confidence."

                                                                            (Archbishop Ireland, Chicago, 1895)

This Summer Day

This is my first attempt at "blogging inside the lines," (in other words, according to an outline... more or less..).  I'll just be adventurous and see what comes of it!  I am joining up with the ladies at Suscipio today for Catholic Woman's Almanac.  

Here goes... 

Today I am thankful for:
+ AIR CONDITIONING.
+ “My special window,” beside which I sit to pray and read and blog.  It has a bookshelf right beside it, and at hand are my Bible, concordance, Cathecism of the Catholic Church, Liturgy of the Hours, books of saints, papers, pencils, CDs, folders of writings and newsletters.  I look up from the computer screen onto a blazing hot day.  From my white-curtained window, the afternoon looks absolutely cheerful.  But if one goes out into it?  Not so much.  So very hot.  Thank God for trees in their best summer green.  They soften the piercing sun.
+ Watermelon.  It IS summertime to me. 
+ A wonderful blogger who recently affirmed my 10 months of blogging in a very kind way.  If you're reading this, my friend, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

Today I am praying for:
+  The USA. The world.
+  Our beloved Church.  Priests.  Religious Orders.
+  My family.  My friends, including blog readers.  And this means you.  Yes, you.
+  My friend Brian, who will be having brain surgery in a few days.

Today I am reading:
  Several things at once.  As always.
+ Strange Gods Before Me by Mother Mary Francis PCC.   An older book (1964, I think) that I'd read a number of years ago.  A friend gave it to me recently, and I am enjoying anew Mother's holy wisdom and keen sense of humor.  She often has me laughing aloud. 
+ Adam and Eve After the Pill by Mary Eberstadt

Today I am looking toward: 
+ A fourth of July caring for my youngest grandchild (age two) while her mommy works as a hospital nurse.

Today I am remembering:
+ July fourths when my own grandmother took me to our city's fireworks displays.  Such excitement!
Boom BOOM Boom boom BOOM boom BOOM !

"I will give thanks to You, O Lord my God, with all my heart, and I will glorify Your Name forever"  (Psalm 86:12)

(painting of "Watermelon" by Eugenio Lucas)

Simply This..

"The whole
realm of nature
is his
who has
God
for
his Portion." 
             (St. Ambrose)






(public domain photo)